High School? Really? I'm 38!

High School Bullies in the Adult World

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Do you ever feel like you are perpetually stuck in a high school nightmare world in your adulthood?  Surrounded by people who find enjoyment in their days by acting like high school bullies?  Nobody should find enjoyment in treating others like they are less than you or stupid.  You are older, and have more experience them them and for some reason they can't be OK with that.  Instead of working hard to improve themselves they choose to break down those around them. It's sad I think. That they are they insecure of themselves but also that they need to being those around them to the point of misery that they are in tears on a regular basis.

I keep to my self and offer my advice or help when I can.  When I am standing a few feet away from a fun conversation spoken loudly that I have a humorous contribution to I join in, just to get dirty looks and stares back.  Raised eyebrows with complete silence.  As if to say "How dare you speak to us, you aren't on our level, now leave."  Exaggerating?  Sure.. possibly, I am.  But I am not exaggerating how it felt. Especially since this was not a one time situation.   Ask to clarify something so you know exactly what your next step or duty is and you get hard tone and attitude as if you are asking because you are too stupid to psychically know something you should know.  Really?  So much for team work I suppose.

Watching this happen to myself and feeling that I should never want to lower myself to their childish antics and just go on with my day and my job.  Let them be children.  Let them be bullies.  Let them be the small, small, tiny insignificant souls they are making themselves out to be.

But to then see them treating someone below them as horribly as they have been treating me....  I couldn't handle it.  There is never a reason that makes it OK to treat someone as less than to you.  Someone new who is starting from the bottom like we all did.  You don't talk down to them and reprimand them for every move the make.  You don't make them suffer and torture them for asking for help from someone else you hate.

If you do something to improve your life, something you should feel proud of yourself over.  Something that makes you feel happy, you shouldn't be then made for feel like you should be ashamed of those accomplishment.  Or feel guilty for them because someone else hasn't made those same accomplishments.  That's not how to treat others and that's not how to treat someone you once were friends with. Friends at the time of these accomplishments.

It's time to close this chapter.  Write an ending to this book of negativity.  It's time to start a new chapter in a new book for my owl life and not allow someone who I once called my friend break me down to feel like nothing.

I am a good person.  I deserve everything I have worked hard for and succeeded at.  Whether it be, work, weightless, health, home I make for myself or my happiness.  I own those things.  I deserve to appreciate them and not regret them.  I deserve to be happy about them.  This is the time to make changes.  This is the time to embrace the good that is coming my way, and let go of those who bring me down because they need to feel like the better one.

It is now time for me to love me again and not worry about what others think of me or let how they treat me effect my happiness.